'Scuse me while I kiss the sky...

Despite a lot of things, I’m EXTREMELY BLESSED to have everything I have and have the people I have in my life right now.

<3

5.47am thoughts. 

To add to my last post…
The events from last night really opened my eyes and made me realize how really underappreciated I am.
How I try really hard to impress, to please, to be there for others (including people I barely know) and most of the time I get not even a quarter of it back. It’s exhausting…
But then there are those that take their time and make an effort to tell you how much they appreciate having you in their life. The ones that sincerely thank you for all you do.
The ones where you don’t give even 50% of what you do to those who undrappreciate you and they still give you twice, three times, four times as much as you’ve given them.
The ones that give, appreciate, please and care without wanting or expecting anything in return.
People that find the smallest of details about you and are able to bring them to the surface and not just remind you they exist but also make you feel really good about them.

After all the negativity lately I really needed this. A breath of fresh air.
I’m very independent and don’t usually tend to rely on others and I know fully well that not everyone I will come across in the future will be the same but I really needed people like them around and I can’t help but feel blessed to have them. :)

Am I the only one who doesn’t get why everyone wants to be famous? 

Am I the only one that thinks that they have missed the point of having a BLOG?

Let’s say, someone joins the site, they want to be “FAMOUS” here. 
After this it just gets way too damn weird.
They will do anything to just get there, most often than not mimicking what other people have done, their style and the way they are.
I’ve seen people change their attitude towards followers and people who would contact them too over the course of their time here on Tumblr. Which is just pathetic because most often than not these people have no self-coinfidence whatsoever in themselves but as soon as they have a decent amount of followers they start thinking highly of themselves as if that number magically change their way of being.

And then, let’s assume that after months of faking your own identity, someone finally reaches their “goal”! They are not being followed by everyone on Tumblr.

What different does it make? How on Earth will this change their life so subtantially that they had to devote and dedicate months of their lives to get there? And hide who they are in the process, losing touch with who they really are.

You’re “tumblr famous” that’s it.
It will not change your life in any way shape or form.
It will not make you a better person and truth be told, from the examples I’ve seen it tends to “change” others for the worse.

It will not being you wealth, health nor happiness. True happiness.
And most likely than not you will just spend your time in front of the computer because all the attention you are getting comes from here, Tumblr.

I really don’t get it.

Welcome to Tumblr, the new virtual “Hollywood”?  

Half past 3 in the morning and I just woke up after a certain something.
Dont even remember falling asleep!

Life’s good though!
It sucks losing someone you really loved due to how they’ve conducted themselves but life goes on.
Waits for no one.
No matter whatever tragic event decides to happen during our time here, it’s up to us to find and hold onto whatever little bit of positivity we can find and improve it!
Use it to get more, find more!

Be greedy because if there’s something this world is lacking nowadays, it’s positive-minded people! :)

Reflecting about the day out with Lauren and what’s been happening.
I couldn’t be happier that things didn’t work out last year with the two people I dated. Allowed me to get space, focus on myself and my business and eventually meet Lauren.

Never have I met someone as compatible as her. In every single respect. Except art since while she has done Art in school she’s not a massive fan of it. But that is fine… Some differences are fine. She has her own interests and I’ve got mine.
But at the heart of it all she has quickly become very special.

I spotted a pattern with the previous people I dated. I noticed that interest slowly died out after a bit and their behaviour changed. Most often than not because they already had someone in the back lines… Waiting…
People that show interest and once they have yours… Do a U Turn and their attitude towards you changes. Then shit happens and things end.

With Lauren… Not a day has gone past when we didn’t laugh together so much that our stomach hurt and we teared up. Spending the day laughing and smiling, sometimes just at each other’s presence.
She’s the girl that loves you, cares about you, looks after you without expecting anything in return yet… It compells you to do it all back.
Those who know me know I’m already like that but due to how she is it just makes me want to be there for her even more. I’d be lying if I said that I don’t miss her. We always do and get all mooshy mooshy and text the other as soon as we leave to go about our business.
Non-smoker, hardly ever drinks and the concept of getting drunk disgusts her. Two opinions very similar to mine and that I couldn’t respect more.
She’s one of the most incredible and loyal people I know and as someone who could never be unfaithful that is something I really love.
She doesn’t mind how much of a geek I can actually be and that has provided great times together because she too can be quite geeky/nerdy. Genuinely. (What kind of girl forks out £80 on Vorpal Blade? Apart from a psycho of course. - Yes yes, one of our inside jokes.)
This whole time I’ve met people that I thought were right for me. People that at the start showed one facet and within a very short amount of time were able to show their true colours.
With Lauren effort has been consistent from both sides.
Effort to plan to see each other and make it happen and effort to make it all work.
I call it effort for the lack of a better word right now because so far this has been the most effortless and the most fun connection I’ve had with someone I’ve dated/am dating.
Not a day has gone past where she didn’t thank me for another perfect day.

A long soppy text post about Lauren… Why?
Because right now I’m the one who couldn’t be more grateful.
Grateful to have her in my life. Grateful for all the epic and hilarious moments.
But mainly grateful for all the fucking exs and disgusting ugly piles of crap I’ve dated that lied, cheated and really messed me up but allowed me to grow, develop, become a better person and eventually be free to welcome Lauren into my life.

Right now I couldn’t be happier to not have any of them around.
Right now I couldn’t be happier about every single aspect of my life.

He who laughs last, laughs best!